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Finding our home

5/27/2023

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For converts, the journey on the road to Roman Catholicism is as varied as their individual personalities and experiences. My journey was a rather circuitous route, due in part to a neurological disorder – but I’m getting ahead of myself.

Our three children are now adults, but when our youngest was just starting school, she began displaying sudden twitches and jerky movements which seemed out of her control. Our initial concern soon turned to alarm as the movements became more pronounced, and as she also began making odd sounds as well. We checked with our family doctor, who referred us to a pediatric psychiatrist over the Christmas break. After a lot of listening and observing, he gave us his diagnosis: Tourette Syndrome.

In some ways it was a comfort to have a name for the condition, but we also felt anxious about what the future might hold. My husband and I read everything we could get our hands on about Tourette Syndrome and found out that most people learn to cope with this neurological disorder, though it isn’t an easy condition to live with. We also learned that the involuntary movements and sounds are called motor tics and vocal tics.

School became a nightmare for our daughter. She felt humiliated, confused, sad and, most of all, concerned about “disturbing” the other students with her frequent vocal and motor tics. Finally, we made the decision to homeschool her, in an attempt to salvage our collective sanity. I quit my teaching job.
PictureLaura & Bill Locke
I’ve noticed that, from my childhood, when faced with distressing experiences I seek solace in books. This was no exception. As we launched into the new experience of homeschooling, I buried myself in my spare time in the works of authors I have long loved, including C. S. Lewis. One line from Lewis’ book The Problem of Pain had a profound impact on me: “Pain removes the veil. It plants the flag of truth within the fortress of a rebel soul.” As I sat one day at our dining room table, reading and absorbing those words with my twitching, barking daughter beside me working on her math lesson, it did indeed feel as if a veil was being ripped off my old perceptions of myself, of God, and of the world. I knew I needed to go deeper and find a better way to cope with this new reality. 

C. S. Lewis led me to one of his favorite authors, G. K. Chesterton, whose books I ate up with an eagerness that my husband found rather baffling. Fascinated by Chesterton’s conversion to Catholicism, I then started reading the works of other notable converts – Cardinal John Henry Newman, Dorothy Day, Thomas Merton, and Scott Hahn. My concept of our relationship with God was challenged by their insights.

I grew up in the United Church, and my husband and I attended Protestant Churches with our children during the early years of our marriage. But after reading the stories of famous converts to Catholicism I felt drawn, like a magnet, to a little Catholic church in our neighborhood. I had never been inside, even though we had lived just two blocks away for almost twenty years. My husband decided to join me, and as we entered the church building together one Sunday, as Mass was about to begin, we had absolutely no idea what to expect.

At first it felt very foreign, but we kept attending. Before long, we found ourselves signed up for a Rite of Christian Initiation for Adults course (RCIA), with a group of other spiritual explorers. We were increasingly captivated by what we heard every Tuesday night at the RCIA class. In the Catholic Church we found people who were unafraid to gaze on Christ’s suffering, and as I followed their gaze, I was confronted with a love that shook me to the core. I felt like I finally understood Chesterton’s astute comment: “The Catholic church is bigger on the inside than it is on the outside.”
In the prayers and practices of the Roman Catholic Church I discovered a timeless connection, reaching back to the apostles, which backfilled missing elements in my faith. Discovering the writings of the early Church Fathers, and reading about the lives of the Saints, enriched and deepened my spiritual growth. And in the Eucharist, I fully embraced the invitation to come, eat, drink, find strength, accept forgiveness, and embrace God’s love.

My husband and I are both grateful that in the Catholic Church, we’ve found our home.
 
*Post Note: Homeschooling turned out to be a wonderful and very enjoyable experience for us. Our daughter’s condition has improved, in no small measure because of her own maturity, self-awareness and self-acceptance. We continued homeschooling right through to grade 12, and she graduated with Honours. She also received the Premier’s Citizenship Award for her volunteer activities. 
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St. Joseph Parish's Centennial Garden

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Laura Locke is an educator, journalist, and editor of a free online eMagazine called Kolbe Times: Faith, Arts & Justice (kolbetimes.com). She is also the author of A Lamp on the Hill: St. Joseph’s Parish 1912-2012 (Calgary Public Library). Laura is married to Bill, who is publisher of Kolbe Times, and they have three amazing adult children and one beautiful grandchild. Laura and Bill enjoy biking, cooking, and volunteering together. They received the Sacrament of Confirmation and were welcomed into the Catholic Church at the Easter Vigil in 2007. In 2014 they became members of the Order of Secular Franciscans.
Photos courtesy of Laura & Bill Locke.
2 Comments
Dolores Mac Gillivary
5/29/2023 09:00:44 am

Wonderful faith - filled story. God was at work helping their daughter and themselves. Blessings ! Wonderful story.

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Kathie Zakresky
5/29/2023 10:48:24 pm

Congratulations, Laura, Bill and family!
What a wonderful journey ✝️ welcome to the glorious faith of the Roman Catholic
Church., and also a special blessing for your precious daughter ❤🙏
Thank you for sharing your beautiful and inspiring story and may you continue to be blessed with GOD'S abundant gifts present in The Most Holy Eucharist,
His love, His mercy, the commmunity of His family, and so much more!🙏🌅💒
Take care,
My Prayers are with you🌅🙏🎶
Kathie Zakresky,
Sacred Heart
Strathmore

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