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Blessed are the sick

2/10/2021

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PictureLisza Bruder
​My life used to be crazy fast-paced. I was always filling my time, planning for the future, and writing out the steps I needed to follow to get where I wanted to go. Now, I don’t know what I will be able to do tomorrow or a week from now, never mind in a few years!

​This has been one of my biggest challenges living with chronic illness. Letting go of what I thought and hoped my life would be and accepting what it is.

I had formed a large part of my identity around my ability to work hard. School was always hard for me, but through a lot of work I not only managed to successfully earn my PhD in biomolecular science, I was darn good at what I did.

​When my health made it clear I should switch careers, I moved into human services. My goal was to become a counselor so I did online courses towards a Masters program. As my health caused me to slow things down, I had to calm my stubborn and competitive sides and let go of this goal. With each step “backwards” I was very frustrated with the limitations I faced. However, I also found I preferred the little things to the big I had been pursuing. So I started an online business (Lisza’s Gifts) that allows me to use both the analytical and creative parts of my mind and might provide some long-term financial support as it grows. 

Through my many years of school I learned to ask questions and accept help. But I have discovered that it is not as easy to ask for help with personal things. My health is such that there are often days when showering is so exhausting I need to nap, so how am I supposed to clean my house? Or when I’m in a crazy amount of pain and I need my “good” painkillers but I can’t get up to get them, how am I supposed to prepare food? I knew that eventually my Crohn’s colitis and other conditions (both identified and those still under investigation), would leave me homebound, but in my early 30s? This was completely unexpected.

Right now, my life seems to be all waiting. Waiting to get lab results. Waiting for the referral to yet another specialist. Waiting for more tests. Waiting in the ER. In these times of waiting, grace upon grace is granted. I receive help from family and friends to shovel snow, grocery shop, pick up prescriptions, drive me to and from appointments and the ER. I have the prayers of many people and the time to pray for them in return. I get to spend more time learning about my faith and myself. I have started to learn how to focus on what I need more than what I need to do.

In 2020 my health went from inconvenient to unbearable. The worst part? The doctors do not know how to improve my situation. I don’t know why half my symptoms start or why some of them randomly stop. I either need to sleep a ridiculous amount or I get insomnia. If I’m lucky, I have 4 good days between my Crohn’s treatments every 4 weeks. I struggle with the loneliness and isolation; then I struggle with having patience with the people I do speak with. 

I believe that most people would say that I have more bad in my life than good, but I cannot control my circumstances. I can only control how I respond to them. It has been a steep learning curve to reach a place where I have largely accepted that my health will dictate more about my life than other factors. However, that doesn’t make it easy and I grieve every time. 

I think most of us learned in 2020 how we are less in control than we thought. I think the quote stating that we are all in the same storm, but in different boats applies well. There are things we can do to improve the ride even though we cannot change the storm, such as remembering that Christ is in the boat with each one of us. 


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Written by Lisza Bruder.

Lisza lives in Lethbridge where she earned her PhD in Biomolecular Science (specializing in Crystallography) in 2018. Having always been involved with various ministries within the Church, she is now serving through her daily prayer and online business Lisza's Gifts. Lisza feels welcome at both Lethbridge parishes. 
3 Comments
Alice M.
2/11/2021 03:28:34 pm

Thank you for reminding me to focus on what I need (more God-time), not what I need to do (less of everything else).

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Shawna
2/21/2021 10:55:27 am

You are a beautiful witness of faith in so many ways.

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Claudia
5/27/2022 09:57:37 pm

I loved the part about showering and then needing a nap, lol. And I also loved the part about needing a ridiculous amount of sleep or having insomnia. I can so relate! For me it's like coming home from work and going straight to bed, for four hours, then getting up to cook dinner and wash the dishes and maybe even taking a shower, or just waiting until morning for that.

I've had colitis since I was diagnosed at age 33. I am now 61, so 28 years. It's always been more or less of a challenge and, yes, it's changed all my plans. Except in one thing, my faith is stronger and better.

Blessings,
Claudia in Canmore

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